Saturday, January 10, 2009

GOD IS SO GOOD.....

The Farmer family was on quite a roller coaster ride in 2008. As a lot of you know, early in 2008 we prayerfully decided to adopt from China yet again. We were very excited and couldn't wait to start the paperwork process. Then in July, our agency was denied their Hague Accreditation and we were told to find another adoption agency. I was totally devastated and very upset--but we pressed on. This would mean we would have to completely start from scratch...a new home study, new birth certificates, marriage licenses, physicals, etc. Have them notarized again and send them off to be state certified...again! Our family and friends had selflessly helped us and were still helping us raise money for this adoption...and now those funds were gone! What were we going to do? Through endless prayer and lots of support we sent our application in to another agency. But, I was still very uneasy about the finances. Only through a miracle would we be able to afford this. But you know what? God sent me an angel...and her name is Cheryl Dunn!

Cheryl and her husband John are missionaries from Taiwan. Their family came back to the states on furlough for 7 months and lived in Mt. Carmel. Our church supports John and Cheryl and their ministry. They are a wonderful Christian family spreading God's love to the people in Taiwan.

I began to talk to Cheryl about our adoption in China and all of the ways Satan was trying to stop us from getting our baby girl! I spoke with her about the money and how I just didn't know how it would be possible--especially since we were wanting to take our kids with us this time. Then I began to ask her about adoption in Taiwan. We talked on several occasions and I asked her to please pray for our family.

I had been praying for God to please make it clear to me if this was His will. Sometimes I can be a bit oblivious when God is trying to tell me something. I needed Him to give me a clear answer--either open the door or slam it shut! Guess what? God's answer was as clear as day!

I remember the day like it was yesterday! On the morning of December 8th, I received an email from our adoption agency that the orphanage fees were going up to over $5,000 plus the wait could very well reach 4 years. There was no doubt in my mind that this was a slamming door! I quietly thanked God for the answer--even though I was extremely upset. Did this mean I wasn't going to have another daughter to love? My heart was completely broken! But I had accepted God's answer. I talked with Donnie when he got home and explained to him what God had revealed to me earlier that day. We cried and prayed with each other and felt this was God's will--not to adopt from China.

Then, around 8:30 pm I got the call that changed our lives! It was Cheryl Dunn! She began to talk to me about a non-profit organization that she was going to start working with when she got back to Taiwan. They are an organization birthed from the desire to build relationships with Taiwanese women. They are devoted to helping pregnant women who have no place to go and do not want to have an abortion. Cheryl had spoke to one of the women who runs the home and told her about our family and our circumstances. (She was not aware of what had gone on earlier that day) They were very excited to hear about us and told Cheryl to tell us to send in an adoption application. They were wanting to start doing international adoption and would like for us to be their "guinea pigs". Plus, Cheryl would be the foster mom to our baby before we went to pick her up! Is God not AMAZING?!?! He had slammed one door shut and opened another one for us--all on the same day!

But--all of this happening in one day totally freaked me out! TOTALLY!!!!! I called my best friend Debbie crying my eyes out hysterically! Before I could even get the whole story told to her, she was in her car and on the way to my house! Debbie has been such a great friend to me through all of this. There will never be any way for me to show her how much I love her and appreciate her friendship! God definitely blessed me immensely when he gave me my best friend and sister by heart...Debbie Jo! By the time she left, I was calmed down. But I was still worried about how we were going to afford it!

On December 12th I talked with Cheryl again! I just came out and asked her, "If we decide to do this, can our family stay with you in Taiwan when we pick up our daughter?" Her answer was like music to my ears! "Of course you can! We would love that!" Another answered prayer!

On December 17th, I emailed them our application and we were approved! After Wednesday night church, Cheryl called Taiwan to ask them a few questions. I had her ask them exactly what the cost was going to be. I really needed to see for sure if we could afford this. What Cheryl told me brought me to tears! They were going to waive all of the Taiwan fees--they did not want us to worry about money. They just wanted us to focus on bringing our little girl home! PRAISE JESUS!!! Our biggest and only expense was going to be airfare!

Someone recently sent me this scripture: "May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed." Psalm 20:4 I am reminded in this scripture that even though our plans were to adopt from China--God had bigger and better plans! He knew our daughter, Mylee, was in Taiwan all along. I believe that our journey throughout 2008, even though we walked through many a valley, helped us to be drawn closer to God! After all, isn't that what God wants. James 4:8 says "Draw near to God and he will draw near to you." And just look at the mountain we are standing on now! Shouting God's grace and mercy to all who will hear!

This journey for us is not quite over! Not until our daughter from Taiwan is placed into the arms of her forever family! Which will more than likely happen this year! All I can say right now is...GOD IS SO GOOD!!!!!